04-24-07

It's another one of those days. She sits in the McDonalds on Lancaster and wants to pass out. She didn't go to bed the night before because she had to get up early this morning to go to an appointment just to find out that she didn't even need to be there. Since she had other things to do she decided to go and get them done rather than doing what she wanted to do which was go home and sleep for a week. After she is done she may be able to go home and sleep a bit but its very doubtful because she has two little demon children she has to take care of. The poor noodle was coughing all night and the spawn is hyperactive and about ready to explode. One good thing this week is she gets to start working. (*hopefully*) Her oldest younger sister is turning 17 today. It makes her feel old just thinking about it. She sometimes just wants to go back to the good old days when things were so much simpler. The only kids she ever had to take care of back then weren't her own so she had a bit more freedom. (*kissing gets you pregnant*)
The past couple months have been the best and the worst. The puppy eyed ex seems to have made out a vendetta against her for things beyond her control. The horrible names and accusations he made hurt her more than him practically sloughing off his duty to his child. When he came to visit he was all for taking the paternity test. In the two weeks he was back home his mind changed dramatically and he denied his daughter. She couldn't believe the words that he said to her over the emails sent. (*When are you gonna send me your address?* *I don't see why, she's not mine and you know it* *No I don't know it and neither do you. Stop being a pussy ass mother fucker and take the test.*) The name calling and viciousness ensued and his words angered and hurt her. And so she vowed that he would pay for this injustice that he wrought upon her and the noodle. That was probably the worst part of the past couple months.
The best part was when she started hanging out with the milk man more. His sweet words and deeds have helped her rise above the past and start anew. He makes her feel happy, sexy, loved and safe. They started hanging out around christmas, talking and having the occasional escapade every so often till it became clear to them both that the relationship they had was more than just friends with benefits and the escapades became more often than not.