Friends. 11-30-07

Why do people have to be so stupid sometimes? I had a friend who did nothing but tear me down, lie to me and steal from me. I kept forgiving and she just kept slamming on the crap. I have done alot for her and I rarely got anything in return besides lies and drama. The last fight we had was the LAST fight we will ever have because she stepped way over the line. You don't threaten someones family and then expect for things to go back to normal. She has a problem with my boyfriend. She seems to have it in her head that he pretty much controls my every move. News flash!!! I am my own person. No one controls me. I make my own decisions based on what I know and what would be good for me or my family. I may be slack on some points but what i do is what I do because I want to do it. And what I don't do is what I don't do because I don't want to do it. Not because someone else influences or "controls" me. I've quit smoking pot because alot of my attitude and slackness stems from it. Not because my boyfriend doesn't like it...(which he doesn't, even though he says he doesn't care). The aforementioned friend has stated that I chose him over a torrential 6 year friendship with her. The fact of the matter is I chose stability over chaos. She tells me that I have become a bad mother since I've been with him, that my house is filthy and that all I do is sit around and wait for him to come home, and that when he is home I spend all my time with him. I admit I have let the housework slip and that I don't spend every second of every day with my kids. But I also work to keep a roof over their heads, food in their stomachs and clothes on their backs. There are 5 people living in this house. Not one of them seems to pick up after themselves (including me) unless I feel like starting shit and getting on people's asses. On my days off i don't feel like doing anything. Not many people do. The point though is that I'm a better mother than some. My kids are the world to me. No man or woman is more important. As for the friend, I am done with her drama. I am done with the shit she has put me through and the shit she would put me through if I remained friends with her. I can't deal with the deceit and thievery and the constant drama drama drama. I'm starting a new life with new friends and a new attitude. No one will bring me down again.